Ok, so I just want to apologize for the fact that it has been a while since I have last written. I have had alot of things happen between that last writing and now. I just want to mention that I truly enjoyed the trip. God is doing some amazing things in Budapest! This trip was a learning experience for me. Even though I went last year, this trip truly has changed my life. As many of y'all know, I suffer from depression. I have been suffering from it for a while now. I have been putting a 'mask' on telling myself and my friends that I am fine when really I am screaming on the inside for help. While in Budapest, God really allowed me to take my mask off and see that I need some help again. After lots of prayer with some of the members of my team, I have decided to go and see someone for help. I am wanting to get help now, which is a HUGE step for me. Please pray that I can find someone to help me get to the root of my depression so that I can be truly happy. Also, I want y'all to pray for the people of Hungary. Pray that they can see hope in their lives, and that suicide is not the answer. Being a Christian is so hard, especially when I myself suffer from depression, thinking that God can just take it away. I feel that God put depression in my life so that I can teach others how I deal with it, and that taking medicine is OK. I stopped taking my medicine in high school because I hated taking something that made me so fake and made me feel so dull. This will be a learning experience for me. I know that I will get better, it will just take some time. Depression is something that is very hard to explain to people that have never suffered from it. I just ask for patience during this time. If it wasn't for this trip, I would still be pretending that everything is ok. That was my purpose on going on this trip. I hope this make sense, I love yall so much! Thank you for just being there when I have needed someone to talk to, or even someone to hug. That is all~
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