Random

Ok, so I am up quite early on a Sunday morning and I happened to be facebook stalking my own site. I had totally forgotten that I had started writing this blog.. oops.. A lot has happened since last September (I should say two years ago). I am a full time student at hcc, and hoping to get into U of H in the fall. I am also a nanny to three kids, who definitely keep me on my toes. On top of that I am still a docent at the Holocaust Museum and I am also a runner! I have ran a total of four half marathons, and lots of other 5k's and 10'ks.

I started running in 2008, and ran my first 5k on my birthday of 2009. My time sucked, but I was VERY happy that I finished! I also loved the feeling that I felt after I had crossed the finish line and had my friends (who had finished twenty minutes before me) there cheering me on. I NEVER would have guessed that that one race would have started this mini obsession of mine to run. Running is time that I have to myself, where I can reflect, and slow down the thoughts that are running through my mind, and to figure out whats next in life. I am a HUGE planner and have literally planned out my schedule (classes) along with pretty much what I want to do with my life. I know, its kinda sad, but I enjoy the idea of looking to what the next chapter of my life will be like.

I am turning 26 on March 28. Last year, I am not going to lie, was a VERY hard birthday. I had set certain expectations on what I thought my life was going to be when I turned 25, and NONE of them had turned out. I was not looking forward to turning 25 and have had not accomplished any of the goals that I had set. Now, granted, some of them are not my fault but I was still disappointed none the less. I am looking to this year, as setting reasonable goals (for each semester). I also need to not set my expectations so high (which I do all the time). My main goal is to graduate from college. I am not going to lie, I feel silly being in school at the age of 25. I wish that I had stayed in school and not worked for those almost 5 years and had just sucked it up and graduated with the rest of my friends. I figure though, my life has never mirrored that of any of my friends. I have always had some sort of obstacle to overcome or some setback that has played a major impact in my life. My biggest issue that I have is comparing myself to other people, which needs to stop. I am my own person (even though I am quite silly, well I'm always silly or a goober as one of the kids I babysit calls me).

I feel that it has taken me this long in my life to realize what I want, and I am that much more determined to get it than ever. I WILL graduate from college, I WILL get a job (and of course I want to get married and have kids.. but that will come when it happens). I cannot wait to see the next journey of my life, and yes I know it will be tough, but I know that I can do it. I am so thankful for my friends who encouraged me in the first place to go back to school. All I needed was that little 'push' (well it was more like a shove towards the end) to get me back in the game, and guys.. I'm Back!!