I apologize yet once again for not updating the blog. Life has been been hard, not going to lie. I really enjoy updating this because this blog is a perfect outlet for me to express how I am feeling, without anyone interrupting me.
I finished my semester failing one class (evil math), making a 'c' in biology, a 'b' in my American lit class and an 'a' in government. I have never been more disappointed in my grades. This was my first full time load going back to school and I failed a class. Every semester I have learned, will be an adventure, learning how to manage my class load, and make sure that EACH class gets an equal amount of study time. It has been well documented that math and I are NOT friends. All I have to do is retake this class and I am DONE with math.. FOREVER! Thank God!
On my last day of finals, my father had major surgery to correct damage done by radiation. The surgery he had is called a urostomy (spell check doesn't even recognize this word.. neat) . Here is a link to read up more about it ( http://www.cancer.org/Treatment/TreatmentsandSideEffects/PhysicalSideEffects/Ostomies/UrostomyGuide/ ) On top of having this life changing surgery, he had a heart attack, which has caused another set back. With my dad, its never one thing. We are well into a month after having his surgery, and it slowly starts to look like everything is starting to run smoothly. I am truly grateful (and relieved).
Dear cancer, YOU SUCK! My father is currently in year 7 (will be year 8 in August) of having prostate cancer, which is a cancer that older men tend to get. And yet, my mom got pancreatic cancer in her early 40's, so the 'age' stereotype doesn't apply to Martins. My only wish with people reading this blog, and is that guys start to get their psa checked and monitored on a yearly basis. Dad was diagnosed at age 49, only because he had been getting his psa level checked for years. Prostate cancer doesn't run in our family, (his uncle got it, but not his dad). PLEASE get it monitored guys! Y'all DO NOT want to go through what we have been through!! Most people associate prostate cancer as a cancer that is slow, is quite treatable (which it is, for most). All you do is have the prostate removed and you are good to go (after doing radiation or chemo). When younger men get diagnosed with it, it is VERY aggressive and it spreads quite quickly. Dad was given less than a year to survive when he was diagnosed, and because of a clinical trial that he got started IMMEDIATELY after being diagnosed, it helped prolong his life. I credit MD Anderson (and God) for saving his life. I have no idea what I would do without him. The fact that he has been suffering for so long, has been killing me. I want to be superwomen, and take his pain away (but I was not granted super powers.. damn..).
Tomorrow morning I am running/walking in a 5k to raise awareness to this great organization called TEX US TOO (http://www.texustoo.org/), "Tex US TOO, Inc., Houston's oldest and largest chapter, provides a forum for sharing, caring and learning from medical experts and through many programs and services. No one needs to face prostate cancer alone. We spread hope." Hope.. wow. I love that word! Tomorrow I will run/walk for my dad, and the thousands of other dads, grandpas, uncles, brothers, etc who either can't walk, or are no longer with us. Cancer has helped me realize that life is precious, and you need to be grateful for each day you wake up. So dad, tomorrow as I am running in the awesome H-town heat, I will be thinking of you, thinking of the pain and suffering you have been going through, but at the same time, being hopeful that maybe one day, you can BEAT this!!!
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